Friday, May 22, 2009

Today is absolutely gorgeous! Right now, as I am tying this I am sitting on my mother's front deck, with a half drunk mug of coffee, a lukewarm bottle of water and my laptop (obviously) wearing my new sunglasses soaking up all the warm and delicious sunshine! The dog is napping blissfully on the small worn mat by the front door and everything is right with the world.

Well. Almost everything.

The stunning dress that I bought two years ago in Florida doesn't fit and I was planning on wearing it to the graduation ceremony on Tueday - ohmygoshitsalmosthere!!! It was a slighty traumatic experience. I will have to find a picture of the dress and show you. It really is quite something. It seems that I've obviously put on weight over the last two years. my favorite pair of camoflauge shorts don't fit me properly anymore either. I've realized that I'm starting to suck in my small protruding belly to get into ym clothes. It does not please me. At all. So I've been trying to diet.

Notice I said trying. Portion control is my biggest obstacle. you see.. for many years now I have been having a mad, love affair with food. I do love it so. I could eat and eat until I explode. So now my biggest problem is trying to cut out th eunhealthy snacks .. or at the very least substitute the big bag os LAYS poatoe chips for a smaller helpng (14 to be exact) of multigrain nacho chips and a few slices of cheddar cheese. And fruit. Lots of fruit. This morning for breakfast I had a whole wheat grilled cheese sandwich and a bowl of fruit - strawberries, pinepple, cantelope, and honeydew melon. There was also whipped cream .. but I didn't take any. I'm also trying to get obn the treadmill regularly. I should probably get on today before I get ready for work. I haven't been on in the last couple of days - my legs have been a little on the sore side. I guess half an hour of running is bound to take a toll somehow, right?

I am simply in awe of the sun right now. Srsly. I'm here sitting and overlooking the whole town - the benefits of living on a hill. The harbour is a beautful shade of sapphire, the leaves on the trees, which normally aren't out this early in the year, are the deepest most stunning green. The grass isn't fairing so well yet. It could do with some grass seeds and a gentle sprinkle of rain. Hear that Mother nature - I said gentle. Gentle warm rain. Romantic rain. There isn't a single cloud in the sky and it's a perfect blue canvas. Cars are freshy washed, and as the drive along the main road across our meagre little beach they are dazzling and sparkling. The trees on the hill on the opposite side of the harbour and thick and full of green, and even the cliffs and pastures for animal grazing look beautiful to me today. Normally, I would dismiss them with a sigh of irritation but on days like this you can daydream about pirates and caves filled with hidden pirate teasure - a notion which isn't too far fetched for this little town is home to one of the most romantic pirate legends of all. the pirate Peter Easton and his bride Princess Sheila NaGeria! I will have to look up their history and tell you about them.

The kids are outside today as well. Matthew and Anne just took Adam and Leah to the playground. It's such a beautiful day, with just the right amount of a breeze for it not to be sweltering that spending the day inside should be considered a crime against nature. I was even awake early enough this morning that I've been able to spend at least two or three hours outside sitting in this glorious light. Of course, my 9.30 am rise might have been slightly attributed to the fact that I was in bed and asleep before 10.30 last night. A mild shocker to anyone who truly knows me. Normally, getting to bed before 2am is considered early. But given that the two days previous I had been woken up before 9am (8.10am one day, and 8.45 another) meant that an early night was necessary. I even napped on the sofa last night after stuffing my face with home made fish cakes!

Srsly .. my Mom makes the best fishcakes known to man. They are given a light dusting with some flour (not Gluten free I'm afraid so those of you with wheat allergies.. sadly, I cannot give you a suitable recipe. Gluten free flour is something hard to come by from what I understand) and fried in a hot pan. I can't remember if there was oil used or not. Truly, I am living the life right now. I feel totally spoiled living with my parents. There are BBQs every other day, fresh green salads that I make .. endless amounts of fruit and a hot cup of coffee either from McDonalds or Tim Horton's every morning! Now, if you haven't tried McDonalds coffee .. srsly - you have to. It's is really, really good. It's made from Arabica beans - or so it says on the cup.

I'm also loving Twitter. Lady Gaga of Poker Face fame is now following me. I am that cool that I have celebrities following me! Forgive me if my ego runs away with me temporarily. I've also tweeted P. Diddy, John Mayer, Ashton Kutcher and Ellen DeGenerous in hopes of luring them to Tweet me back .. but all attempts have thus failed. I do love Twitter. It allows for a certain degree of anonymous internet obsession that is perfectly socially acceptable. I love it!

I've also discovered FoxyTunes! if you don't have it by now .. you really should get it you know. It's a wonderful little add on to your brower (Firefox in my case) and it allows you to tag your internet posts with what music you are listening to. They even have a feature for Twitter clled TweetTunes, which I have so far resisted in downloading although the TweetPic is starting to look more and more appealing to me. Coldplay puts up about a billion pics everyday and some of them are really quite stunning. Chris Martin looks absolutely irresistible in some of them.

But, the time has come in which I think I have babbled on long enough and while I feel energized enough, I should really get in on that treadmill and flick on either MuchVibe or BPM.TV and get in a workout before I shower and depart for my last shift of work! I'm a little excited about that prospect. I wonder if I'll cry. For some reason, I don't think so. And at some point this week end there will be dancing!

Happy Friday!!!

Monday, May 18, 2009

Well then...

... things haven't gone exactly as I had planned over the last little while. Korea still tends to be the sleeping giant of possibilities in my life right now. I can't help but think that I was getting led down the garden path by them, to be honest. I sent them my application via the school's website and never heard from them for a couple of weeks so I sent them an e-mail letting them know I had applied. Not even an hour has passed before I get an e-mail from them saying that they reviewed my application and wanted to set up an interview. Now, due to the difference in time zones scheduling an interview was going to be a bit tricky and they told me that they would reschedule for some 'next week.' Well, next week has come and gone, and has turned into an entire month. A month, I say! So. There you have it. I was rejected before I even had a chance to get a bid on acceptance.

Rejection in any and all forms sucks. And I've come to learn over the last little while that I don't take rejection very well. Here I am, a grown woman and I can't cope with rejection. But, I will say this though. It's Korea's loss. I have other things on my plate to deal with right now, and not the least of which is quitting my job that lasted a month shy of 4 years.

Yes, I am leaving Please Mum. At the moment, there are details that I don't wish to discuss because things could get rather messy. But in time once I've gotten settled with a new job (I've yet to confirm any possibilities and/or opportunities with anyone) I will sit down and enlighten you all as to why I left. For right now, I will say this. Please Mum is a great company, but store management leaves some things to be desired. Dee baby, I know you keep tabs on me and you of all people will appreciate that sentiment. You know, I really should tell you all about Dee. She is quite simply 'my Dee.' I love her. Truly. She makes me laugh all the fuckin' time. I think that over the almost year -gasp!- that I've known her, we've have maybe .. and I'm being generous here... two serious moments between us.

A typical day for Dee and I starts and ends with talking in British accents, which we do quite well, thank you. She has also mastered 1940 black and white mob talk. We dance - all.the.time. It helps that the music at work is from a 1980s dance party. We rock. She does the Running Man. Sunday, it was hilarious. I can't quite remember how the conversation went, but it ended with Dee and I shoulder to shoulder singing "The Heat Is On" together on cue and both of us acting independently of the other. It was beyond awesome. She also does, on occasion, bring in the most divine of all treats ever to be created involving chocolate. A skinny Chocolate Chiller from SecondCup - a little coffee shop that's right across from where we both work at the moment. Srsly. It's divine. It's powdered chocolate over crushed ice and milk with whipped cream on top. Oh.My.God. She also made me a fantastic CD featuring Kayne West and LMFAO, which I -being a complete dunderhead (yes, I said dunderhead)- went and left at work. Could I be any more of a douche? I'm so looking forward to it. Dee's CDs always rock. For two white girls, we should have been born a little more black. I think our love of hip hop is borderline blasphemous.

Of course, not that that is all we listen to. Dee is a die hard Kelly Clarkson fan. "My Life Would Suck Without You" is a current favorite track of mine. Of course, it does have stiff competition from Amy MacDonald's "Poison Prince."

And, on a completely unrelated topic - I'm addicted to Twitter. Even moreso now that I've downloaded TweetDeck. It keeps all my notifications in one nice neat little package and I can actually keep things organized. TweetDeck keeps track of not only Twitter updates, but Facebook too! I'm in such trouble. I actually spent most of the day on Twitter, looking at pictures from Lance Armstrong and Coldplay, and streaming video from Ashton Kutcher on the set of his new movie with Usher called Five Killers. It keeps me so occupied, it's rather scary.

I've also done some blog-creeping today as well and added a few blogs for you all that also provide endless hours of enjoyment and amusement for me. The only thing wth blogs however, as you may have noticed, is that I don't commit to them regularly. I forget to read them, and I am even worse at trying to remember to write in them. But I am trying. I promise. If you read - you must comment.

If you comment, I shall write!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Different Options

Today was incredibly productive. I sometimes amaze myself. I was at the bank talking about a tax-free savings account ( I know, how grown up does THAT sound) and we ended up talking about me potentially going to Korea. Now, one of the women who works at the bank, her older daughter who I went to school with was over there for 3 years teaching with a different school. She was in Seoul and -loved- it. So, now I'm considering applying to the school she was with YES Youngdo.

I also cleaned out my car today too! And washed it! I know! And it was sunny outside today and warm and beautiful and so lovely! And now my car is all clean shiny! The hinges were even greased in the doors, and I used windex on the windows, and I even washed and cleaned the sideboards and everything else! I couldn't believe how grubby, messy and dirty it had gotten after all winter. My problem is, is that I don't take care of things. I filled a plastic shopping bag with garbage and various bits of debris that all came out of my car .. mostly tucked underneath the seats. But no, my little red beauty is stain (mostly)! The spilled coffee is gone from the driver side door, the spare change is nestled lovingly in my pants pocket, and all that's left out there is a quart of oil, the windshield scraper, and a spare pair of shoes as well as various CDs.

Mark, Adam, and Leah spent time outside with me too and I had a chance to take some really cute pictures of them all. Mark has been getting awful nosebleeds lately, and it seems nobody knows why. He had one today during supper. It was surprising that he didn't let it drip all over his BBQd hamburger - which were so delicious! But anyway ... half a box of tissues later and we had the nosebleed under control. Mark needed to get talked into finishing the rest of his hamburger but it was either leave it unfinished and no bedtime snack, or eat it all and get a lunch. So, he ate it. Adam on the either hand ... was a little more contrary and didn't want any and made it clear he didn't want his bedtime snack either. So he kept his hamburger for him .. maybe he'll have it later. It isn't very often that Adam doesn't eat all his food. If anything he eats and eats and eats! Mark is the picky eater in the family, so it was a real victory today that Mark ate all his hamburger without too much fuss.

Leah has an appetite like Adam. She eats everything! She just recently turned one, and she's the most precious angle ever. During supper tonight she had her banana's and custard babyfood, some soft cheese, and some of my green salad - which included muchrooms, cheese, ham, and salad dressing. She loved every bite! She's such a pleasant baby. I'm so glad on days like these that I moved home to spend time with them. It makes life worth it, it really does.

I really never meant to gush in and one about my nephews and niece, but sometimes I can't help myself. Talking about them today seemed a whole lot easier then going on and on about Tax Free savings accounts and ESL Schools in Korea. I did look Wonderland's website up again on the internet though, and I found a number for them. So, perhaps I'll call them myself. I need some advice there though. I don't know if calling them is the right thing to do .. does it make me look too forward? Too desperate? This is all so confusing sometimes. But still, I feel like I'm taking control of things in my life. I don't know how well it's going to work out in the end but at least I'm doing something, right?

I've also had a sort of revelation lately. I'd forgotten how much I love to write. I've gotten back into some great stuff lately and it seems that my day really isn't complete unless I can spend an hour or two writing. I have exercise books FULL of old writing stuff, that I started when I was young. I think I started a murder-mystery story once but it revolved around a tribe of Native Americans. At the time I was really into the books by W.Michael Gear and Kathleen O'Neal Gear. They really are wonderful books - I used to really love them but I've gotten out of them over the last few years. Stephen King is a fabulous read too .. Diana Gabaldon, Jacqueline Carey .. and my new favorite Neil Gaiman! -swoons- I found him on Twitter.

Yes. I joined Twitter. I am of the tragic. I really shouldn't have. Srsly. It was a bad move. I have enough vices on the internet as it is . Twitter is the devil, and Facebook is it's hot, underage daughter. I blame Dee. Srsly. It's her fault. If I become a shut on and start reading Twitter and mumbling incoherently to myself .. blame her. She introduced us .. against her better judgment I might add! -huffs-

Monday, May 4, 2009

Where are they?

Well, I'm starting to get a little worried. There hasn't been any word yet from the Wonderland School about my interview. I haven't heard from them since April 17th!

I wonder what happened. I know the time difference is a terrible thing to try and get around, but it's really awful sitting and waiting over here from some indication from them all the way over there on the other side of the world.

I am compulsively checking my e-mail. I check it now like 8 billion times a day. Maybe I should try giving them a call. I think I remember seeing a telephone number on their website. Or would that be like .. really weird - even rude? I have no idea what proper procedure about all of this is. It's all very exciting and nerve wracking.

Mom, on the other hand, wants me to apply and finish my Social Work degree before I go to Korea. Social Work is something else that I need to get on the ball about. I just finished one degree, and now I'm planning to do another. I must be crazy. On the upside, I won't b undertaking another degree with MUN - thank god. For starters, they don't have a fast track program, which means I would have to plug away at another 4 or 5 years to get a Social Work degree. Retarded. You can apply to the Social Work faculty straight out of High School and go right in to the degree program, but if you had a degree already, they don't give you the option to get the degree done faster.

The Fast Track program in New Brunswick in only a year. And there are a bunch of different fields that you can go in to as well, judging by a short read over their website. The application process though, look monstrously complicated. It actually scares me a little at all the paper work I would need to do and submit for their program. Don't these people know that I am the world's leading procrastinator? I think I need a secretary to do all the trying paperwork for me. Volunteers anyone?

But seriously .. look at me. I'm an adult. I don't feel very much like one. Am I supposed to? Things were SO much simpler when I was a kid. When did my biggest problem stop being making sure that my toast was cut in squares ( and it was so delicious. With peanut butter and honey.) to making sure my paychecks cover my bill and trying to save money for trips and stuff. I'm not organized enough to keep track of money, let alone save it. I have too much fun spending it. Someone needs to take my money from me and give me so much at a time. I'm so terrible at being responsible with money. I need an accountant. Volunteers anyone?